It is 3:18. Feels like more sleep than mere hours

Trump is shy three votes. YOU are still on the throne. I am sitting on the toilet in our bathroom! Thank you for our bathroom ministry. I am remembering how they started coming to me in bathrooms even BEFORE I “officially” came back you. You used the rape to prepare me for everything in this moment. The gravity of the weight of this truth is substantial.

I believe I have already repented for any time I was not open to LISTENING to EVERY PERSON. Please reveal to me any time I have failed to meet your standard. Like any child, I learn from making mistakes. Please keep growing me.

Forgiving others opens up more of this sacred quadrant in my heart with you. I love feeling this extra lobe in my lungs, too. May I always remember you changed “lobe” to “love” three times. You really are the Master Comedian, too. 🤣

Thank you, again, for putting Don Dickerman s Book in my hands. Oh, the PIGS! More Jesus and Less Carol is always the best math and the best recipe for peace. That was EXACTLY three months ago. Oh, how awesome you give me dates to remember! What an AMAZING PRIZE you gave me just before drifting to the sweetest slumber!!!

Lord, thank you for directing me to cling to the HEART YOU GENEROUSLY GAVE ME. Trusting you as my GPS is easier than ever

Spiritual training is like pruning any plant or tree. Only in the pruning is the sweetest fruit produced. Thank you for pruning me, Lord. You removed the obstacles. What you have taught me about false doctrine this past month was confirmation of many things with two of our previous church leaders.

Thank you, Jehová-Jireh! You always provide.

You gave me three Z’s and tuned me into minor prophets years ago. It all leads to this moment with you IN MY BATHROOM. It is always so sweet when you make me giggle. Zeph and Zach and…

This is how it feels when you are excited in my obedience. MAGNIFIED. 💜✝️💜

Lord, you know my standard prayer list. Praise abounds for all the confirmation and beauty yesterday.

Our Radical Rachel, my sister and your daughter, has shared more of the depth of her hurt with me. Lord, you know how deeply I feel the pain of others. Her specific pains have impacted me in my own path. You know I feel those shared experiences even deeper.

Yessir, I am writing it down. It is not asking or telling you my pain, it is describing the heart condition in coming to you. Being aware of YOUR PRESENCE , PROTECTION and PROVISION in all of it. I am bringing YOUR HURT under my heart, too. I don’t know how it is you let me feel pain as a blessing, I am just grateful. Small price for “added instruction”. 😇The HEART of the INTERCEDER matters to you. Of course it does! Duh, Carol!

You have never abandoned me. Never!!!

So, from that depth of depths, Father God, before these quickly forming tears begin to rain on my phone, because you are bringing me more of Rachel’s pain (happy tears), I plead for Rachel’s needs. If there were things her children were spared because of any physical separation…may those provisions become clear to her and may she thank you for hidden provision. May they read her messages and may YOU be planting seeds through those one way exchanges. May you guide Rachel’s heart and encourage her in any way she may need to CHANGE MESSAGE or FREQUENCY.

If restraint is needed, please reveal it to my sister. You know how much love you put in our heart for her! I believe you are going to deliver the victory in 2025. I sense this season of separation is meant to be extended as you prepare Rachel in your WORD and with YOUR SPIRIT. Oh, how she loves you! Help me love her the way she needs at this time. Let me be a blessing to her, Father God. Selfishly, you know how I love to witness such victories. I am asking in the name of your precious son, Jesus, and every drop of blood He shed for us. I love you so much. Amen.

Five minutes later, or less:

PS. You are leading me to feel like I am wrong to say “selfishly”. As always, you are correct. All of your kids should desire to SEE VICTORIES. I am listening. I just don’t deserve the abundance of Blessings you shower me with daily. Miracles! EXPERIENCES! Last night’s good night hug! My soul sister, Rachel’s angelic voice! Oh, my, I am going to go read what you gave me while Mark listened to the election. Praise Yah!!!