Father God, I do not know why you put this on my heart to share at such a late hour last night. I do know I woke up with minor discomfort instead of the havoc-wreaking pain for the first time in five days. I know I woke praising you and feeling strong, after praying for strength the past two days. I thank you for Nancy and how what she shared was so meaningful to Deloris. I thank you for using me to convey love and comfort one of your daughters. I thank you for the conversation with Justin yesterday and everything else you are using to bust my heart wide open. I thank you for giving me a husband after your own heart, Lord; only your Son has ever loved me more on this earth. I am humbled greatly by how we are seeing more of you in my children. You are so present in our lives, Father God! I thank you for your word, direction and inspiration. The past three days have been a whirlwind, but what a beautiful one. I will share the half of the letter you want saved for Your Purpose and I pray in Jesus' name, it will glorify you. I love you so much.
It would mean a great deal to me if you would consider praying about being able to help them truly connect. ……. they aren’t connected, truly connected, to any of the younger parents with younger kids.
I know them well and know it is their hearts desire to grow real relationships within the church. They don’t like intruding when others are busy trying to leave, or when others who do know each other are gathered and having such fun. So, it has been nearly impossible for them to find one “open” young couple for introducing themselves.
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These two families are two of several heavy on my heart. I know one church can’t be all things to everyone. I am also sensitive to the fact that (identifying details edited) So, I am sensitive to your busy-ness and obligations but it’s being pressed HARD that you may be the person God wants to use to help nurture the (Name) and (Name) families.
I do understand if the answer must be “no”. But please know that I’ve been in the most awkward and amazing state of obedience for close to three months. I no longer ask if anything makes sense on paper. I pray about everything and the Holy Spirit has been planting intense compulsions on my heart and ideas in my head that I know are not from my analytical brain. Every single one that didn’t make sense to me at first, made perfect sense within two weeks. Most within a week, some the next day. So, I don’t question His process with me anymore. I just say, “yes, sir” and do what He leads me to do. Only Jesus could make me write this mini novella to a virtual stranger.
Here is the latest, because it made me giggle. A few days ago, I was praying about how my heart was hurting for people feeling unloved (not the *redacted* or *redacted* families) and asking for guidance on how to love them in a way good for them and Him. Then, I was asking Him for strength (Nehemiah <3) because I am human and I was a wee bit frustrated with sending repetitive emails. The gist of what was revealed is that, yes, love is a repetitive action and it is very annoying to keep asking people do anything. Then He imparts to me that is exactly why the greatest COMMANDMENT is to love. We are called to love in action and deed. And He isn’t “asking.” Hence, the “yes, sir”.
Please forgive me if this seems “too much” on the surface. If it were me, I would say “hey, can you make it a point to meet these two families and pray about how to help nurture them in our church and in their lives? That just isn’t what He wanted. So, out on another limb, I trust Him. I pray it serves His purpose. I believe it does because my heart is now joyful in obedience at a ridiculous hour. With that, I bid you good night!
My God Room 