Officially, it will be two weeks on Monday. It is 6:21 PM, after Shabbat has ended. While navigating the hurt and searching for the lesson for me regarding the Miss Plastic situation. I have not been writing here. It would be fair to say that is a healthy habit for me to refrain from writing when I have been wrestling with such matters. I do not wish to speak idle words, nor write them. However, I also have a duty to hold myself accountable. For the sake of balance and obedience, I need to take a few minutes to jot down a rough outline of what Yah has been doing as I look back.

First and foremost, YHVH has given us the best helper in the Holy Spirit. Ironic and beautiful that Israel means “he struggles with God”. Wrestling with the LORD isn’t about “winning” or “pinning” on points. For me, it is about asking my Sovereign Lord and Savior, to please help me understand whatever it is that is not making sense to me. Wrestling is a purification and sanctification process which inevitably leads me into more dependence and a deeper relationship with Jesus.

I started Genesis in my New King James Study Application Bible. We have continued in our study of James, as well. Plus, I have been listening to Gods Little Hummingbird lessons and having interesting tidbits and reels pop up on my phone. Because I was struggling to some degree from the Plastic Lover attack, I know I had to be grounded in His Word. Whatever evil power is working through her, I now see it as a blessing to have that relationship removed from my life at her discretion. Thank you, Lord.

My mom, sisters and all our kids gathered together for Thanksgiving dinner. This was the first time in nine long years that we have all been together. After years of praying for reconciliation between my sisters and mother, it was surreal to have us all together. There is never a cornucopia or other pagan nonsense at our Thanksgiving dinner. Thank you, Lord, for reconciliation, healing and gathering my family.

Many wonderful Godversations in the shop over the past ten days. However, as He is prone to do with me, there were certainly less of them, overall. I understand more of why it happens this way. People can be distracting, and all of our customers are people. Today, I am most grateful for the way Jesus hung out with my husband and I last night in our room. We had the best Godversation of the past two weeks!

The nutshell was “give him a different type of excitement”. The Lord knows my physical issues and that burden has lined up exactly with the Rachel situation. A negative double portion is one view. Twice as many opportunities to give everything over to The LORD is my view after wrestling. In this moment, I am thinking of what Melissa taught today about Leah and Rachel in Genesis. I am remembering the phrase in GEN 30:27 “To learn by experience” is from Strong’s H5172, Nahas.

In Gen 44:15, it means to practice divination, observe signs. According to the internet response, in every OTHER use of this word in the Hebrew scriptures, it is associated with witchcraft and negative. Still, I want to read all the scriptures for myself and see what the Boss reveals.