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This was a painful post about needing someone you love to be close by, “just in case” they need you.

Father God, please guide my heart and spirit to be anchored in your truth so the lies of our enemy can not find fertile ground. In Jesus’ name, I pray.

Waiting until May seems like forever for a court to resolve ****REDACTED***.  Waiting is hard.  Beautiful reminder of the praise expressed through music.   For now, I listen.

Either you are with Jesus, against him or on the fence. Choose. Like the blind man incredulously challenging the Pharisees, come on, man, don’t YOU see the truth? If so, live it.

That is my much condensed version of yesterday’s sermon. Still with me. Still reminding me. Daily, I choose to be with Jesus.

From the beginning, God made Matthew a record-keeper. Uniquely equipped. Pondering all the times He has used my hands to write certain things. Plan it-Do it-Blog it. Essays. Letters. Poems. Songs.

The meaning of Ezekiel, a humbling reminder today, is “God is Strong” I flipped back one page to read the overview and forward one to see where God had me three months ago. I must digest as I prepare to open our business today.

Lord, I thank you for waking me up before the alarm, just so I could have this time with you. Thank you for your son, Jesus, and the perfect leadership He displayed and lived. May you make me more like Him and less like my self. I love you.

Yesterday, I received a *REDACTED FOR PRIVACY* legal document accusing me of UNCLEAN HANDS.  The lies were so pervasive and bold in the same breath.  I am human.  I have emotions.  Heck, Jesus had emotions.  HE WEPT.  I wept, yes.  However, I was also livid for a myriad of other reasons.   Thankful for prayer.

Today, I responded with clarity to my Attorney. I must give it over to God and to the attorneys. I can not negotiate with someone who is such a manipulating liar. *REDACTED details do not point to the “Him” that matters most.  *

Tonight, I flipped before coming to bed. Of all the passages...thank you, Lord, for reminding me how you view unclean hands. May the words which come from my lips honor you.

It’s been a chaotic week, to say the least.  My daughter was at doctor appointments all day Tuesday and I was at Vanderbilt Children’s Hospital with Casey yesterday.

The truth is i I have felt disconnected a bit.  I know God is with me, certainly for me.  perhaps  where I am is just a place of emotional and spiritual exhaustion.    I love you, Lord.  Please help me get back to you.  I muttered something similar on the drive home last night and this morning, He is wooing.

Oh my. My app was locked from getting a new phone and I posted from the website. I just went to download the app to this phone and..,

And giving all of it to God to do with it as He wills…empowering. Mark and I let go of so much last night.

Thank you, Lord ,for getting us through this tough season.