My brains are hash brown brains. Odd how that old family expression found me. My son had a big wreck two days ago. The aftermath, especially with my husband out of town, has been consuming. I flipped late yesterday to Ecclesiastes. I read it and it moved me…but all the more this morning. I need to breathe and be still in this moment. I will pray throughout the day and flip again when I get home.

Do not be quick with my mouth, indeed. Thank you, Lord. I love you and praise you for all the blessings in our lives. I aim to be a better mom, woman, friend and business owner today.

Hit me hard this morning.

Excellent truth to punch me awake before church.

How perfect to find comfort in these two Psalms. Mediation was painful for someone very close to me.  The father of her children does not want to help support his children financially, spiritually or emotionally. He is missing out on the biggest blessings in life, aside from the knowledge and peace which only comes through knowing Jesus.

What a wonderful, albeit painful lesson, to put me on my proverbial knees to pray for the father of my children.

Father God, I acknowledge the resentment I hold in my heart toward Mike.   I pray to be relieved of any ill-will or hurt regarding that which happened a generation ago.  Lord, may I forget the pain and remember your promises.  May I stand firmly on your word and example. You are my sword and my shield.  You are everything…thus this resentment is nothing good for me.  It is nothing good for you.   I am truly sorry for carrying around this box of rocks (as an old friend, Courtney, once shared).  It is not mine to hold, but yours to handle.  May my failings be used in some way to point to you and glorify Your Kingdom.  In Jesus sweet name, Amen.

Sick feelings have overwhelmed me. How the father of my children could be so selfish to not see them in 4.5 months (aside from the day my son drove to forgive his dad) —I will never understand. Today, we go to mediation.

Lord, protect my spirit so I can only reflect you and your will, not my own anger or hurt.

Interesting and perfectly timely to be flipped to Titus today.

Lord, help me reflect less me and more you to make me a better leader. Please keep My prayer list active for EPH 1:17 over Mark, Blake, Morgan, Tom, Bryan, Pam and our church. I love you.

Perfect He had me flip here today. Third time since Aug 27

More important to share Him with Kristen and Pam via text than to write it out pretty here.