This isn’t exactly how I would prefer to get back to the business of writing things down.  In fact, I have been thinking on this for a week and had a completely different path on my heart. Still, this is the place I am in in this moment.  It is only fitting today’s One Minute with God for Women is about Righteousness in Romans 1, 3 and 5. 

First things first, I am grateful for so many wonderful reminders how much God loves me. I am beyond grateful for the ways He has clearly moved in our lives, especially mine. Thank you, Lord, for getting me through the insanity of the past week. I am not going to write it all out here. Suffice it to say, my mother shared information with me last Tuesday which has taken a toll. Everything which “added on” over the course of a week felt like little evil trolls attacking me with a dull knife. I shared the details with my daughter yesterday, as we were working to complete her move. One thing I know is clear, sharing honestly with at least one other human aids in making everything better.

Hours into the moving of things, I suffered an accident. In short, I was carrying up a glass tabletop. Halfway up the first set of stairs, condensation formed quickly over the cold tabletop in the heat of the day. It became too slippery to move my hands and ended up breaking on the seventh or eighth step. Glass shards sliced open my left elbow, damaged my hand and cut my right pinky deeply on the inside.

It was ugly and a literal bloody mess.  I understood why my sweet daughter was concerned.  Life has taught me to get into solutions instead of remaining in problems.  My solution was for my daughter to drive to the closest Dollar General and grab some super glue.  I even spoke in a calm, clear voice, encouraging her that I really was okay.  It worked perfectly! 

What was NOT perfect was my response to learning she had texted someone specific about my accident.  I owned my mistake and explained WHY it is my preference to not involve others unless necessary. 

My sweet friend from middle school reached out for prayer today, as did Assisi Elizabeth.  While I do not know exactly the situation for Miss K., I know Elizabeth is getting another round of special chemo treatment in Florida the next few days.  Praying with and for her since last October has been a beautiful experience.  Today, she WhatsApp’d me that I am her favorite “stranger friend.”  Ours is a sweet, intentional and spirit-filled friendship. 

In this moment, my heart is heavy.  Sadly, it’s heavy over a different relationship in which I have been diligently working to improve communication.  Instead, a phone call unraveled in such a negative way, it’s left a mark on me deeper than the laceration on my left elbow.  My spirit is not settled.  Legitimately and logically, all I sought to do was genuinely make EVERYTHING EASIER for EVERY PERSON, not just one of the four in consideration regarding this specific situation. 

Lord, I desperately need to pour out my heart to you. I know you always hear me and know the condition of my heart. I know I don’t even need to have words, much less the “right words”. Thank you for teaching me that lesson so vividly. Thank you for the encouragement of Andy and Tommy on Season 19 of The Amazing Race. Of all the “training videos” we have watched, their faith has mirrored our own the closest. It was no mistake we watched this particular episode with Mark’s dad and uncle yesterday before I went to help my daughter. As much as I love Andy’s Proverb, it was a huge Godwink to hear Tommy quote 1 Thess and for your spirit to remind me of Romans 12:12. Oh, the beauty and grace of “waiting well”. You know what I need without words. I ask for it in Jesus name and every ounce of blood He shed for humanity. Amen.