Today is Wednesday, May 1, 2024. There is part of me which feels like March and April went by extra slow, yet they also feel like a hyper-quick blur. Until I have clearer understanding of WHY time was warped during the “BPP” aka Blood Pressure Palooza, I am trusting He is going to get me there in His Timing. He always has and always will.

This morning, I had a follow up appointment to get new bloodwork completed. Getting up extra early for a doctor appointment, I didn’t have the time to study or linger in God’s Word. Arriving at work, I planned to study some similar themes in Psalms and Isaiah. They have been on my mind since last Thursday.

Before diving in, I stopped to read the daily devotion in One Minute with God (for Women). No shocker, it was about RENEWAL! What a wonderful question to ask God. How MORE or DIFFERENTLY can God renew me? Immeasurably more, no doubt.

Items Left in the Study lists problems with Brandon Lake’s song, Gratitude in October 2023. I agree with the scripture quoted and other elements of praise and worship to be considered. Furthermore, I agree with the pastor, “You see, we are to walk in obedience to God. A life of obedience, that is what is fit for a king. His servants pouring out their lives in service for Him.” Under the “about us” section, Pastor Isaac details his personal testimony and calling to be a pastor. “God showed me how to love the unlovable…” and how to view others through God’s eyes. My spirit was unsettled. Why?

Where I disagree is in the fact this website has other follow up posts declaring why they no longer use “NAR” aka Bethel/Elevation music. Pastor Isaac with Bedford Alliance Church makes several statements which cause my heart to hurt. Blanket statements like, ” I am not surprised by the bad theology in this song because Brandon Lake is connected with Bethel Church in Redding, CA and Bethel Church along with their music labels promote questionable teaching all the time.”

I must stand in the gap and pray for him and other false teachers to have the truth revealed to him. I felt no love in his words. All of Gods children are called to lead with love. I am not saying that pastor or any other doesn’t have a relationship with Jesus. I do not question what is between them and God.

What I am saying is when MY SPIRIT recoils, it is like a red flag warning me the person does need prayer. Feeling the weight of another’s “woe” will drive me to my knees in obedience.

Thank you, Lord!