Yesterday, the Holy Spirit truly had His way with me. In Psalm 77 around 9 am, it took seven hours to write before sending to our Bible Study Small Group. While I do see things I would edit in my flesh, I am to preserve this exactly as it was sent yesterday.

For the record, the acknowledgement it was my third request for testimony should have included something about it being in His Timing. Also, I wrote in Futina’s journal between 4-8 am this morning. I was wrong. It was from Marshall’s, not TJ Maxx. In fairness to myself, I do not go shopping often and I often intermingle the two stores.

Father God, you know the need in my heart. Thank you for all the ways you have moved this week NOT listed here. Thank you for sending Your Helper as I prayed over my husband today. Cleansing tears only come from you. I beyond humbled, in tears, praising you. I am praying, believing completely in the way you are removing the dross. You know I ask all things in the name of your precious son, Jesus, and every drop of blood He so graciously shed for humanity…including me. Amen.

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Cassie, we prayed for your recovery this week and continue to pray. So glad you are on the group chat! When you and Mando were given your car, a new floodgate opened. I will write that out in His Timing. It’s just important you know it if you read this testimony.

There is much behind the image I sent this morning for Psalm 107:20. My personal intention was to ONLY share the image. Just His Word.

In my flesh, all you would get is the image with His Word.

That said, THREE times I have been gut punched in the Word this morning, so the story must be shared. It’s no accident I emphatically encouraged those at the table Wednesday to share their God Stories. Repeatedly. Acknowledging this in this moment is my third group request.

Isa 63:7 was the flip Thursday before I sent that video to our group. I always google for images of a verse which stands out to me each morning when I do not have time for a deep dive at home before work. This is how I hold myself accountable to study His Word at the shop.

My Isa 63:7 starts at top two lines of page 1276. “I will tell of the kindnesses of the Lord, the deeds for which He is to be praised”. Both pages were unmarked. The solitary note is dated 3/14/24 “Thank you for compelling me to ask our small group to WRITE DOWN GOD MOVES. #GRAVEROBBER. “💜✝️💜

When I googled for that image once I arrived to the shop, Psalm 63:7 was returned to me. This happens more than I have documented. It makes zero sense from a technology perspective. It does, however, make perfect sense to me through spiritual eyes.

The image for Psalm 63:7 was what I call a midnight butterfly. 🦋 It looked a lot like the brand new journal I brought to group Wednesday. I was blown away! “Because you are my help(er), I sing in the shadow of your wings”. Yes, sir!

The Holy Spirit gave me Psalm 63:7 the day AFTER watching a Jordan Peterson video about Being a Monster with my daughter and our group studying More than Words:Sight by Pastor Robert.

After watching the Monster video with Mark a few days ago, I felt very led to share the “monster” perspective with Morgan during her visit. The video is about understanding our own “shadows”. Trust me, it is not something I would have shared in my flesh. Too many triggers for the younger generation, especially for my Morgan. A genuine Godversation with my daughter ensued. Praise God!

At the dinner table Wednesday, I shared the gist of our visit was focused on Perspective and Intention. I can’t recall if I shared the “monster” video part. I digress. It’s being pressed that I got very long, back to back and beautiful visits from my daughter this week. Massive blessings on countless levels. Thanking God for all of it!

Back to His Word. (Btw, I just typed Wo to type WORD and GLORY appeared ). Interesting to me…but I am wondering if Psalm 63:7 is specifically special to anyone else in this group. In this moment, I need to share with Marty, Susan and Laurie that I do not know what I prayed for exactly regarding Laurie’s dad,Jerry, as we were preparing to leave. I am praying specifically today for Jerry Psalm 77.

Before I get to the rest of the story as it applies to YOU, I should clarify the purpose of this mini-novella.

Please consider this testimony to the many Godversations and three powerful breakthroughs at our shop Thursday and Friday. Karen, Dottie and Futina were the breakthroughs. I must share one now.

Futina=Photina. My Mark is my witness. Long story short, heard “Futina” on Christian station as woman at well on the way to work Thursday. Friday, she came to the shop. I shared that I heard what I thought was her name on the radio but could not find her name in my Bible. Well, I googled from my phone FUTINA in BIBLE and as she was standing at the counter, PHOTINA and John 4 were returned.

Context: I met Futina for the first time last month. We prayed in the shop that day. She had foster kids removed from their home and was distressed and broken. Her husband is from Ghana. Not important to me, but she has specified that detail three times. Since it’s important to Futina, I am noting it. She had one adult child at home who was about to give birth “next month”. It reminded me of Robert and Delores Lee…and when Robert stayed at the Sterns’ home.

Futina returned while I was out the over these past weeks with poor blood pressure. She gave Mark a brand new journal to give me. How incredibly sweet and thoughtful! To clarify, this is NOT the butterfly journal.

This journal is different, as each of us is different. It is from a senior citizen who I KNOW is facing financial challenges. May God bless Futina immeasurably more for spending three dollars on a journal at TJMaxx to bless one of the owners at her vape shop!

God bless her. She didn’t know the sticker was where it was located. I was relieved and smiled to know it was a 3 dollar journal !! She met me once. We prayed. She blessed me with this precious gift. The fact it was THREE dollars is a detail meant to be preserved.

After praying this morning, it’s clear what I am to do with the journal she gave me. I am to write down my prayers for her in it and return it to her whenever it is filled. I am beginning with Psalm 77 for Futina. Psalm 77 is also for Jerry McKinney (Laurie’s dad), my friend Elizabeth getting treatment alone in Florida and many more.

If you would like to write out a short note of encouragement or prayer for Futina, I would love to include them in “her journal”.

You see, when she visited yesterday, we learned the baby was born healthy. Praising God for the healthy baby…she tells me she hasn’t held the baby yet. She is in distress and my heart is crushed for her.

The daughter left the hospital without letting her mother meet her grandchild. In fact, she sent her mother home to get the car seat and was gone when Futina returned to the hospital. I can’t imagine such grief. I am asking anyone reading to pray Psalm 77 fervently for her and for their reconciliation.

There is more to the Futina breakthrough, but I pray this helps preserve the Godversation and breakthrough 💜✝️💜.

Much, much more has transpired lightning-paced with my mind still operating a bit slower. Please forgive me and do not hesitate to ask questions if anything doesn’t make sense or is missing context.

In this spirit, with so much moving and shaking, I needed to be still. This morning, I began my prayer time with thanking God for ALL He has done this week. I admitted I may already be forgetting details. As I considered the week, I jotted down the “big” things that He specifically did in mine.

In the process, I look at what I posted on FB. Holy moly, I could see the things I did NOT post come to light. I also looked at my journal notes from this past Wednesday. What did God have me write down in YOUR PRESENCE Wednesday evening during the sermon?

Scripture I noted from The Robert Morris sermon on Sight…, Lev 26:26, Deu 38, Isa 4:1. Psalm 107:20,Isa 42:18, 42:20, 43:8, Jer 5:21, Eze 12:2, Zeph 1:17, Matt 13:14-15, John 9:39, Psalm 103:3 , Exo 26.

Psalm 107:20 leaped off the page because my note simply says “The WORD healed”. So, I googled for that image to center my Saturday. That is the image I sent our group.

Beautiful Godwink meant to be shared, no doubt. #GRAVEROBBER was NOT part of the sermon!!! I confirmed by pulling up the sermon and scanning the transcript.

Scripture I didn’t note Wednesday included Isa 55:12, Mark 8:13, Matt 7:17…and more. I will listen again and note every scripture I didn’t jot down last Wednesday. Why? No doubt I am being nudged to study them deeper. Those are the only ones I noted as I searched for where Pastor Robert spoke Psalm 107:20.

I should not be surprised that sermon included feeding the 5k. Mark and I watched Season 3 Ep 8 of The Chosen until last night, bringing that same miracle to life. If any of you don’t have The Chosen App, there are amazing roundtable chats between the Producer, a rabbi, a priest and an evangelical. The one for this episode lit the fire for writing it out today.

Since Bill, Tammy, Cassie, Armando and Mark were not there ….please know #GRAVEROBBER is both beautiful and funny to me. God has such a divine sense of humor! For weeks, I have struggled with incredibly low energy due to BP irregularities. No energy for physical tasks or for writing, either. Mark has done everything possible to help me recover. My body just needs more time to reset.

The point of writing it out is to reflect on where God had me and where He took me this past week. Well, I was in a sweet, quiet place as I headed over for our group meeting. I was praying for Mark’s health and other things. Very un-Carol-like in the quietness. 🤣🤣🤣

As I was pulling into The Sterns’ driveway, God controlled the airwaves. I am claiming it. Peaceful serenity was removed powerfully hearing David Crowder sing GRAVEROBBERS for the first time! Listen and you will see how it could very much get someone’s blood pumping!

Still at peace internally, it was a different type of peace. It was as if God was telling me to get super excited for what He was going to teach me Wednesday night. Today, it makes perfect sense to me.

I rocked out in that driveway until the song ended. Then I had to pray to not bring that boisterous “hyped up on sugar child like energy” into the Sterns’ peace filled home.

Christine and Terri and I shared three songs in the kitchen at the end of the evening. I simply had to share how that Crowder song came on as I was pulling in the driveway. For the rest of my natural life, that song will transport me back to dancing, singing and praising in The Sterns’ kitchen. THANK YOU!!!

The other two songs were Nordeman’s The UnMaking (brought to heart when Terri used the word stone) and Tasha Layton’s Never. These were songs God put on my heart at that moment. In this moment, I am praying each of you will send me your three favorite tunes in His Timing. I feel the need for a Hope Group Playlist.

In closing, I need to confess something you may not know. I ALWAYS pray to have two ears and one mouth for our group meetings. I love all of you deeply. The last thing I want to do is offend you in ANY way. Sometimes, I just get so excited that praise bursts forth from my heart. I literally have zero power to edit it.

Tammy, I am “hearing” you speak Romans 8:1 with authority. There is no condemnation and guilt for those with Christ…every time I read Romans, I hear it. I just checked old texts and it was 6.5 years ago.

Please know I have prayed for His Will and His Restraint. It is never my intention to overwhelm or annoy. The conflict in my heart is simple. Everything good and of God given to us is meant to be shared in a way to glorify God. Everything we have is from God. Everything can NEVER be shared. Make sense? The struggle is real!

This is the group God has clearly given me to grow my heart, knowledge and faith. Our group is back to 12 members with Mando and Cassie joining! I am so grateful to ALL of you. Thank you a bajillion times over!! Truly, I thank God we are still welcomed in this group, especially since we no longer attend the same church.

Fun fact for Marty: There are 187 references to the number 12 in the Bible. (Different website says 189 in KJV). Well, 187 is also the legal code for Murder. It was a fun history lesson about the significance of the “12”.

What God has taught me through each of you is substantial. More than I could express in many lifetimes. Much has been used to “murder” some old Carol traits. For that, the world owes a debt of gratitude.

As much as I never seek to upset or annoy YOU…I pray even more to remain in His Will. I pray each of you knows how deeply you are loved, especially Mark. I pray each of you knows how grateful I am for whatever you have taught me these past 8 plus years.

As much as I love you, no doubt God loves you immeasurably more.